曲絵詩２

どうにもならないよ
工夫しても
試行錯誤しても良くならない
けど諦めちゃだめだよ
諦めたらもっと酷くなるばかり
諦めなくても追い付けないけど
やるしかないのね
理想は私を置き去りにして無に還す
良かったことはせいぜい百日に１日
果報は百年に１回
自分を騙し騙し生きてきたが
そろそろ辞めたい
このまま墓場にまで持って行きそうなくらい
どうにもならない
何も残らない日々
美しい日々よ
やるしかないのね
何も残らなくても
真っ白なノートがある
美しい日々よ永遠に
I can't help it
even if you try
Trial and error doesn't help
But don't give up
If you give up, it will only get worse
Even if I don't give up, I can't catch up
I have to do it
The ideal leaves me behind and returns to nothing
Good things happen only once in a hundred days
Retribution comes several times in a hundred years
I've been deceiving and deceiving myself
I want to quit soon
I feel like I'll take it to the grave just like this
can't help
The days when nothing remains
beautiful days
I have to do it
even if nothing remains
blank notebook
beautiful days

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